Sit.

Hey, come here, we haven't spoken in a while right? I would ask you how you have been, but right now I have a lot on my mind so I'm just going to ask you to sit with me and listen because I have random thoughts again

this may or may not make sense

but cut me off if it doesn't.

You want to hold hands? No? Okay You're listening right? Yes? Okay

Imagine that you're way ahead in the future Somewhere after 11 years from now imagine you were never heartbroken never got hurt by words as if you never felt your heart sink straight to your gut

when someone said "I love you but as a friend" but you always loved them as something more.

Imagine you never loved them as something more that it was always just as a friend from your side too; now we've taken the salt out of this recipe.

Imagine you never sacrificed something like the time you chose to give up your share of happiness just so someone else could have it.

Imagine you never loved someone so much that you let them go that you never got attached and that you never felt the first few weeks

of a dull ache in your chest and stomach trying to forget it all.

Imagine you never felt bad about about leaving someone behind as if nothing ever happened, as if there was no failure in the first place. now you've taken the pepper out of this recipe.

Imagine if everything was oh so convenient that the person you love, loves you back exactly as intensely that the person you love never leaves you that your heart never breaks or sinks or beats a sad one. Ever.

Imagine you just got everything right in front of you where you could have it that you lived in a constant state of convenience without the little bouts of happiness.

You know, the little bouts of happiness? The kind where after a week of bad day you get a good day and that one good day makes you forget about those seven awful ones; the kind where one person is enough

the person who is the base to your acid

the person who will make everything seem balanced

the person who feels like your paper-weight

who ensures you don't go around haphazardly

who keeps you in check keeps you hopeful.

Imagine you were never hopeful? Would you make it past 11 years? Hell, would you make it past today?

Stop denying your emotions and just feel them They're not people that you need to bargain with. What's that? You want to hold my hand? Okay.

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